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Thursday, June 28, 2012


It's now 6:06pm. My husband just got home from work. Mind you, i went to work at 5:30AM and he went to work at 7:30AM. This is literally the first time i have seen him awake all day. I get a kiss. He goes to the bathroom... not a pee. Bible study at the church, not here, starts at 7. So... he obviously needs to leave before 7 to get there. How long am i going to get to see my husband today?

I'm irratated.

I made sure to COMPLETELY change my scheduale this summer so that i could have more family time. I am taking majority breakfast shifts as apposed to my terrace shifts...ALL SUMMER LONG. what does that mean money wise? Your typical breakfast shift = $60. Your typical terrace shift = approx $150-300. and i'm giving up this money for family time? Well, today my son has been MIA with his cousins ( a normal occurance) and i've spent the day with the girls. Don't get me wrong, i love spending time with the girls, but seriously... i'm eerked.

It's now 6:13 and still no husband. Baby is crying. Got to go.

Monday, June 25, 2012

I don't even know why i have a blog. i never use the thing. It's been close to a year. Oh well...

Oh how life has changed!

 We have an almost 5 month old, beautiful baby girl. Ava Marie Misiaszek was born on Jan. 31, 2012 at 4:23pm. A MUCH easier delivery than Lucille!!! Instead of a whopping 33 hours of labor, we did 4. I'd choose that any day! She did weigh more though. Just about 9 lbs. which kind of killed me, but no where near as bad as some of my friends who have recently had babies. They were torn from asshole to appetite!

 So now she's here. We LOVE LOVE LOVE her and she couldn't fit into our little dysfunctional family any better! lol

What else is new? Well, as of... about 2 months ago, Richard became the new head pastor of our church. It was kind of thrown at us and not under very happy circumstances. Pastor Lee, the man who helped bring my hubby to know and love the Lord, had gotten cancer agian and this time it's not looking so well. So Pastor Maria and he, packed up and decided to move down south to be with their children. I don't blame them. So not only did we get told that Richard's great friend and advisor in life was sick and dying, but also that he would be taking over the church almost immediatly. Crazy.
He's been doing a wonderful job though. I was pretty stressed thinking it was going to take a toll on our relationship, between work, church and 3 young children at home... but thankfully we are balancing things pretty well. I'm not working the loooong hours like i normally do in the summer. So we have evenings as a family, and then we have hired my neice to come, stay friday nights, in order to watch the littles on saturday morning and she lets us go out friday night for a couple hours to be able to just concintrate on us. it's been a beautiful blessing!

well, maybe i will keep this updated a little better. we'll see.

until next time!

Friday, July 22, 2011

Too hot and fat to wear a hoodie

Yep, it's def been awhile since i've done this bit annnd alot has happened, but when it really comes down to it, i have one follower (whom i LOVE) and i am pretty sure nobody is bitting their nails down to the bone to see what happened next in the life of Renee.
It looks like my last blog was in Feb. wow. i am slack.
Hubby and i went on our vacation.... annnnd the opertunity to go on another one, couldn't come soon enough.... BUUUUTTTT it will def be a couple years before that happens agian. Why, you ask? Well, let's put it this way.... this January there will be another child to add to our family portrait. That's right! We're expecting!!! I'm due Jan. 25, 2012. Things are going well. i was sick for awhile and still get my occational puke fest, but for the most part i am feeling much better! With Luci i was sick everyday for 7 months. This is a change... annnd for the better. lol. i am 13 weeks (and 2 days, but who's counting).
One thing that i have noticed about this time around, is HOW HOT I AM. This heat is brutal and it's killin me. i hate it!
Have to go... phone call

Monday, February 28, 2011

My hoodie in big letters says, PROUD MOTHER AND WIFE!

I look around and i see not a messy house, but a very used house. i see action figures on the floor and tu-tus on the chair and straws everywhere. In my bathroom, there are toys in the tub and boxer shorts on the ground and globbs of toothpaste in the sink. It drives me crazy, don't get me wrong. And there are days where i feel like i am more of a maid than a wife or mother. But when it all comes down to it, i wouldn't have it any other way. i love my family. They are wonderful. I love my husband's weird sence of humor and Bible and papers all over the house. I love my son's giggle and wise ass remarks. I love my daughter's goofy faces and high pitched voice. They are a great crew... not the cleanest of the flock, but all in all, they are the best!

Thursday, February 24, 2011

Looking forward to not needing a hoodie

I'd just like to say,  i can put a check mart next to the first 3 items on my to-do list and am making progress on the fourth! Thank you, thank you very much!
Now i need to finish cleaning my house, tan, get luggage and get my nails did. The only one i am not looking foward to doing... would be cleaning. Shopping, tanning and nails never hurt a female before :)

So, I finished all the nessisary documents online and then as soon as hubby got home we sat down and looked to spend a little money with an easy slide of the card! ;)
        We booked our hotel for the 2 nights we'll spend in Tampa before we leave. I found an awsome deal on a beautiful place... much bigger than what we needed, but hey, i'm not going to complain seeings as it cost the same as a regular room. This is a small veiw of our room, it also has a kitchen, another bedroom, 2 bathrooms and a dining area!

After we booked this, we looked at excursions for our cruise. We are going to go swimming with dolphins!                     
And then we are gonna swim with stingrays!
And we're gonna snorkel in the reef!

While we are in Cozumel, we are gonna go to a national park called Chankanaab. In there, there is a spot where you can dive down about 20-25 feet and there is a huge statue of Jesus. We want to find it and take pictures!

I know i am uber excited. 20 days baby!

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

Wearing my cleaning hoodie today (i hope)

Need to Do List for our Trip:
                   22 days and counting!

Finishing filling out form online

Book hotel rooms in Florida

Book excursions

Clean House!

I honestly need this vacation more than i origanally reliazed. It's been a hard winter... emotionally. I had a really hard week last week, not only because of my mother's death, but because of everything else. I'm emotionally exhausted. But, sunday's service at church was a much needed one. I heard what i needed to hear and i raised up what i needed to raise up. I left my problems at the alter and reliazed that God doesn't give me more than what He knows i can handle. I keep hearing that i have alot on my plate, so i guess God thinks i can handle alot. I couldn't do it without His help. Thank You Lord.

Today i Have Miss Dorothy and Mr. Connor. It may not be an action pact day, more of a cleaning day. But it's nice to have them so that all the kiddos can play together. *yawn* i just wish i could get some motavation. It seems that lately i have zero motavation. i just can't bring myself to do anything. i guess i just have to force myself.
so... today i guess i will start with the bottom of my to-do list and clean the house... here we go!

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

she fought a good fight. but cancer won.

I'm trying really hard to keep a good additude today. But i find that as the day goes by, the minutes seem to go slower and slower and my good mood starts to weaken second by second.

                                     Let me explain

6 years ago today i was sitting in class at HCTC. We were learning about the human body and today was going to be the day we got to dissect differant body parts. My mom had been in and out of the hospital for some time now and it was my morning thing to call her once i got to school to say good morning. The first time i called my dad told me she couldn't talk at that time. So i simply said i would call back later. About this time of day, i decided to call back.
Something was wrong. I could tell by my father's voice. He said she wasn't able to talk and i asked if everything was okay.
He paused.
"No hunny. Not really."

That sentence was the one that started my day from hell. I freaked. I had to get home. I needed to be with my Mother. I needed to save the day. My teacher quickly got a sub, i hugged my friends good-bye and we were on our way to the island. When i got home, my dad and my finace were there. We got in the truck and went to the hospital. The rest of the day was kind of a blur. A lot of crying, praying, hugging and telling my mom how much i loved her and how beautiful she was. She wasn't really responisve and the look of her was scary. But at one point, as i held her hand and told her she was beautiful, she snapped out of it and said, "i know." She kept her humor even through death.
                          The day came and went very slowly. Night skys came. My man went to karate and told me to call if he needed me. We just basically sat and waited. Watching her struggle to breath killed me. i hated to say it, but i wanted her to let go. To stop struggling. Go and be with Jesus. If i couldn't have my mother who was healthy and happy... i didn't want to see her suffer like this.
A few minutes before 7 my father got up from her side and went to the bathroom. I sat in his chair and held her hand. The rest of the family talking and crying. Thinking of happy times. My mother always brought that out in people. She always had family around and laughing. This was how she wanted to leave the world. With her loved ones by side and happy. The happy stories continued. My father came out of the restroom and told me to continue holding her hand. Everybody was caught up in a funny story when i noticed my mom wasn't struggling to breath anymore. I was the only one to notice. I checked for a pulse, starting to freak out. I couldn't feel one. was i looking in the right spot? I had to of been... i was in school to be a CNA. this was what we'd been learning. Freaking out now, i kept looking for one. My uncle Rick noticed what i was doing and came over. He checked the other arm for one and told Denise to "get the nurse, Dot took her last breath."

                          I ran. i didn't know where i was going or what i was doing. my mom was gone. she left. she was GONE. Cancer got her. i ran down the hall to the little waiting room. dialed richard and fell to the couch and cried. i cried and cried. she was gone.

                                       6:58 pm my mother went to heaven...

I'm trying to keep a smile on today

                                                                but it's hard. i miss her.